Utterly Frustrated.

(Warning: rants, rants, and rants.)

Right now, the number one on my "stress-list" is my skin problem: Zits. Pimples. A mild case of Acne.

It's been about two months now, and my face is suffering. From my everyday activities, I can't quite put my finger on it, but there are a lot of components that are adding up to my problem. I've been visiting my trusty Dermatologist once a month now(the only period allowed by my super hectic schedule), and she's been very good and wary about her explanations on why I'm having breakouts. She gave me the commons: Allergic reaction to some products and food as well, irritation due to sun exposure, and Stress. STRESS! I am stressed because of over thinking how the hell I can lift myself up in this problem, and turns out it just makes the problem worst.

I am now on the verge of finding my skin superhero. I've tried a lot of products before: Local Obagi, Kojic Soaps, Dermatologists' prescriptions, Antibiotics. Wayyyy before, it worked out. And now, I wonder why they are all resisting my plea to work out :(

Right now, I am using a 5% Benzoyl Peroxide and Galderma's Epiduo which are prescribed by my Derma. She also asked me to use what she gave me a month ago, a 2% Clindamycin solution, but sad to say I finished a bottle already and I didn't see any improvement. Then, I remember using Dalacin C (A Clindamycin made by Pfizer) diluted in Eskinol Classic White back in High School. I decided to replace the 2% Clindamycin with the Dalacin C+Eskinol, with my Derma's consent of course, since she said it is just almost the same.

I am utterly frustrated! And I really hope this works this time.. I want my pre-acne skin back already :(

Found your skin superhero? Share it with me please!

Asymptotic Tuesday.

Whoa, this is the first free night I've had since the first week of July started. (To think that it's already, well, ALMOST AUGUST!)

This term, Tuesdays and Thursdays are actually my least favorite days - simply because academically, it's Math day for me. Sometimes, I love Math, but most of the time I really hate it. (Especially the times when I totally can't get the lesson at first try.) Enough with the ranting.

I never really thought that, Math actually gives out life lessons - depends on how you look at it really. We have the commons - Addition, Subtraction, Multiplication, Division. (Getting kinda nerdy in here....) My point is, again, it gives us "disguised" lessons, such as:

• Addition thought us that, when you add 1 to 1, it will give you 2. In life, we have this saying that goes, "Two is better than One."
• Subtraction, in the context of life: "Take out the negatives, focus on the positives."
• Multiplication: "Life is better when you multiply kindness."
• Division: "Love each other, equally."

See what I mean now? Disguised lessons in everything we learn, it really depends at how you look at things. (For the nth time!)

Now, I learned another life lesson from my Math class: Asymptotes. For those of you who doesn't have any idea about it, (Hey, I don't even know what they are until, well.. 8 hours ago.), Asymptotes are, according to my trusty Word Web Pro application, is a straight line that is the limiting value of a curve; can be considered as tangent at infinity. (Hell, that sounds like something we Math haters doesn't want to go over at.) In much, much simpler terms, Asymptotes are 2, straight lines that goes on and on, getting closer, but will never, under any circumstances, ever intersect.

Clarification getting over you now, huh? ;) In life, (and love as well), there will always be things wherein you think you're one step closer in getting it. But the truth is, it will only just be that: A step closer, a point closer. What's the hardest part about it? Is when you know that somewhere, sometime, someone else will make a way past what you did, what you achieve, and finally, intersect with what you want.

Bottom-line: You may think that you are a step closer, but in time, you should accept that you've tried your best, you gave your all, and still you haven't got it. You never will. But hey, don't dwell on the negatives! Maybe it wasn't yours to have, because you deserve something better. ♥

“Life is a series of natural and spontaneous changes. Don't resist them; that only creates sorrow. Let reality be reality. Let things flow naturally forward in whatever way they like.” ― Lao Tzu

Never live life like Asymptotes, Kiwis!

The Other Half.

"What? You too? I thought I was the only one!"

When you speak to someone for the very first time and realize that you are blurting out these words, you'll know that it's the start of something magical, such as Friendship.

It's true what they say about, "Tell me who your friends are, and I'll tell you who you are." But most of the time, it is really misunderstood. Most of the time, people tend to look on the physical appearance. Most of the time, people tend to remember what's important: the personality, the connection, the Love.

We may all have more than 500 friends in Facebook, but mind you. How many of them are willing to talk to you when the inevitable happens? How many of them knows that you sleep so much because you are lonely? How many of them knows that you sleep very late because your mind is bombarded with confusing thoughts? How many of them will do silly things with you, will not care how ridiculous you will look just for the sake of having fun, will not care how out of fashion you are, will not care what your choice of music you listen to, and most of all, who will care no matter how much distance there is between you?

I bet that with every statement above, you thought of a Friend. I bet that when you read the title of this post, you thought of maybe, a boyfriend-girlfriend relationship. I don't think that romantic relationships with people have the only right to be our other half. Most of the time, its Friends.

This weekend, two of my dearest friends had heartbreaks. This weekend, I realized how much of a friend I am to them. I looked through their problems, and realized that, no, in this world you are never alone. (This is the reason why I hate those people who think that they have girlfriends/boyfriends and such have the right to call other people who have none as Forever Alone(s)).

Friends, they are the ones who can see through you, who can talk to you about anything and everything without judging what you say, without telling you you're wrong, you're right. They tend to be the people who will always care, who will always be there not only through the good times, but [most importantly] through the bad times as well.

Treasure your friends, tell them how much they mean to you. Show them how much you care, teach them how to make life worth living by sharing it with a lifetime partner: A Friend.

“When we honestly ask ourselves which person in our lives mean the most to us, we often find that it is those who, instead of giving advice, solutions, or cures, have chosen rather to share our pain and touch our wounds with a warm and tender hand. The friend who can be silent with us in a moment of despair or confusion, who can stay with us in an hour of grief and bereavement, who can tolerate not knowing, not curing, not healing and face with us the reality of our powerlessness, that is a friend who cares.” ― Henri J.M. Nouwen, The Road to Daybreak: A Spiritual Journey

 Havva Happy Monday Kiwis!